EVANGELICAL SUPPER

Written by James B. Nicola

A? or B? | Photograph by Neha M. Sampat

And home-cooked meals help get you into heaven? Having changed your name to your husband’s, too? What about his changing his to yours? Is heaven largely free of husbands, then?

And the lighter your skin, the better your chances? Wow. And worldly wealth helps, too? You think heaven’s a racist, sexist place with class and caste? I thought we leave our skin and bones behind. I thought we leave our worldly wealth behind. You mean you can take it with you after all?

That explains why, still in your skin and bones, you are the kind of person that you are. But what about the person who is kind?

Oh, by the way, thanks for the casserole. It was delicious. I sure hope it helps.

"A? Or B?" is a black and white photo taken in the office of an optometrist from the perspective of the patient chair. The opthalmoscope takes up the upper 3/4 of the photograph and appears close to the lens, as if it is about to be pushed towards the patient's face. You see only the parts of the machine that come up towards the face, and the eyeholes appear at the center of the photograph. The machine appears in full focus. You can see through the gaps in it and under the machine in depth-blur a further part of the optometrist's office, with a cabinet with rolls of paper towels and spray bottle on it, conceivably to clean the opthalmoscope between patients.



This photo asks us to examine the concepts of clarity, truth, and integrity. What in the photo is the way we are supposed to see it? Once we are using the opthalmoscope, which eye sees with integrity with which lens. A? Or B? Sometimes, it is hard if not impossible to discern.

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James B. Nicola‘s nonfiction book Playing the Audience won a Choice magazine award. Recent nonfiction can be found online at About Place, Mr. Beller’s Neighborhood, Unlikely Stories, and Lowestoft Chronicle; fiction, at Neither Fish Nor Foul, The GroundUp, and Sine Qua Non. The latest of his eight full-length poetry collections are Fires of Heaven, Turns & Twists, and Natural Tendencies. A graduate of Yale, he has received a Dana Literary Award, two Willow Review awards, a Best of the Net and a Rhysling Award nomination, and eleven Pushcart nominations—for which he feels both stunned and grateful.